I am 33 years old. After my second miscariage my life has started to change. I have had a breakdown for several months! The miscariage was not acceptable to me. Why it happened again? I went to see a psychologist, but it did not help. Things went even worse. He made me question things which were obvious before. He said that it must be my fault! …by subconsciously refusing my boyfriend. Therefore I stopped going there, and I turned to spirituality.
Since then I have been working on my self. Sometimes I was feeling better, but still I was keeping my huge sadness! It was like I had lost the joy of life itself. I always had these huge suitcases to carry along with me, and they made me become sadder. My body was tired, and I was lost in my feelings.
Then I felt pregnant a third time, but unfortunately I had to make an abortion, because it´s heart was not beating. In my mind it was like I have made a third miscariage.
After 4 years, I have been lucky to meet Ilona. At the beginning I was scared to work with a shaman, but it has been the best decision I have made since my « babies » problem. While I was explaining to Ilona the most important facts which happened in my life, she has noticed a red thread from my birth to the wearing of a corset in adolsecence and to my miscariages.
We first worked on my 3 miscarriages as these were the heaviest part of my trauma. Ilona has explained me her IP-Breathing Method which allowed me to release my trauma. The experience was very intense, as we have to go back to the feelings of our bad memories/experiences. I felt very tired, but lighter & calmer just after our work together, and I still feel this way after 2 months. Thanks Ilona for guiding me in my release. I can now speak about my miscarriages without bursting into tears, without being lost in my feelings.
Then we worked on the wearing of my corset 23 hours a day 7 days a week during 5 years, from my eleventh birthday onwards (the mobbing by the other kids). My body, my muscles, my organs, my cells had kept in memory this bad experience – a kind of body prison – and Ilona help me to let it go.
Ilona then worked on my birth. Indeed, I almost died on this day because of several medical errors and was i coma for a short time. Ilona has liberated my emotions linked to this trauma, as well as the ones of my mother!
Finally we have worked on my body, in order to help me finding my place. This work has been very helpfull, and allow me to be more centred and stable. I still practice this work every day by myself, and I can feel how positive it is. Thanks Ilona for your love, your guidance and your knowledge. Thanks for having shown me your IP Breathing Method which fills me with energy and power.
Aurélie A., Nizza, Frankreich