It was the most positive decision of my life
Dear Ms. Palucki, dear Ilona,
After 13 years of living with the heaviest anxiety and panic disorder, I had no self-confidence and no self-esteem. After an odyssey on therapeutic procedures, such as: conversation-, ergo-, behavioral-therapy and NLP-knocking technique, hypnosis (6 years at regular intervals) to self-therapy using about 30 different books, I just wasn´t able to get to my illness – it was still here! It came back at regular intervals so that I had not left the house at all for almost 2 years and did not dare to talk to anybody. I had groceries put at my doorstep, broke off all contact with the outside world, even to my family. Talking on the phone was the only thing I could do – anything else simply wasn´t possible. I lost everything – job, friends, partner and body weight from 62 to 47 kg!
I had already saved the link to Ms. Palucki’s page for ages, but I did not dare to write her because I did not want to or I could not believe the other testimonials!
In between, I had regained a bit of freedom again and was at least able to move within a radius of 1 km around my apartment, but still always with anxiety attacks. I began to recount my life in a book. After 227 pages I noticed that everything was repeating itself and that death had been my constant companion and that I wasn´t able to love myself anymore, because in the last years 14 loved ones had died around me – through accidents, illness and even through murder.
One day, when I was in extreme panic again, wincing at every little noise and while the medications helped me only to a limited extent, I wrote to Mrs. Palucki.
Already at the first conversation it was clear that I was traumatized and Mrs. Palucki brought everything to the point, which I had tried in 13 years of therapy to clarify. She gave me time to think about whether I would travel to her or whether she would come to see me. At that moment I was so effusive that I could imagine a trip, but only in my thoughts!
I then decided for her to travel to my place. Eight weeks later, Ms. Palucki stood in front of me and I was so scared and panicking, but in the first 10 minutes she took away my fear and promised that everything would be fine.
Incredulous, I went into the work. It was like as if we were twins then.
It was exhausting and exciting at the same time! You have to admit a lot of things to yourself and have to have absolute confidence. What I was allowed to experience there, you can not put into words, you have to have experienced it yourself.
On the third day my world already looked completely different. On the fifth day I went home singing and on the seventh day I could only smile and then I was looking forward to the meetings. We resolved 7 deeply-stuck traumas!!! Including one, that had to do with sexuality. It was not a physical abuse, for me, it was severe emotional strain. And I wasn´t aware of that trauma at all. It was buried under those cases of death and my two miscarriages. And yes, I was still skeptical if it really helped, but I was taught a lesson: my hair. For years I wasn´t able to comb my hair properly, because they were extremely knotted. Even with an expensive conditioner, it was hardly possible and a lot of hair just fell out. After the first shower, I stood in front of the mirror, took the hairbrush and thought „ouch, ouch“, but it actually went through smoothly all of a sudden!!! I immediately told the sensation to Ms. Palucki and she could hardly believe it either and until today I comb my hair with a lot of pleasure!!!
What can I say, now 6 weeks have passed and every day I am living a bit more! My nightmares are gone. My fear is gone. My panic is gone. My medication is down to only 25 mg per day. My headache and abdominal pain are gone. No more anxiety of loud sirens and blue lights – just gone! I like eating again and looking at myself in the mirror. I am slowly but steadily expanding the radius around my house – which is at 10 km now. I have begun to love myself again. And two days ago I woke up smiling and knew I WILL BE COMPLETELY HEALTHY AGAIN!!!
THANKS YOU ILONA – your work belongs into the textbooks of this world!!! If many a doctor or psychologist would start to exercise this, a lot of people would get much, much better very quickly and they could go into recovery and live!!!
I needed 13 years! The best years of my life I spent in fear! Now I’m 38 years old and I’m catching up on everything I may have missed and the first step was to approach my family. One does not believe how much these 8 days with Ms. Palucki have changed me and this affects my whole environment and life. THANK YOU and also a thank you to me, because I dared to face these traumas >>> Now I can say it: There is a life after the traumas. Please do not wait too long. Every day counts.
Tina from Lüneburg